hello (:

it's 1:30 in the morning and i decided that i should give my blog some lovin' cause i've certainly been neglecting it for ... a while?

so whats new? ... well i feel like a lot is new but i can't really type it down. which kind of defeats the purpose of a blog. but hey, thats just me.

theres little under a week before a new year begins. and i must admit, i've changed a whole heap since the 1st of January 2008.

for one thing, my physical appearance has changed drastically. i no longer have that luscious long hair that i didn't find all that great when i had it, and now i miss it like an itch-bay. my style has changed from Dickies shirts and Chucks to .... wait, it's still Dickies shirts and Chucks HAHA! just throw in a couple of heels and dresses ;)

i have to admit that i've matured throughout this year. whether it be due to being a senior at school or just general life experiences that have affected me. finding a job in retail has definately given me a confidence boost, and even though i moan and groan about work a lot, it is a big part of my life now and i'm hoping that i'll go far in both retail and media ;)

then there's the relationships. the friendships that i have gained and the love that i have lost. excuse me if i'm not making much sense, it's early in the morning and i'm not thinking all that clearly. i've drifted from a lot of people that i held so close to my heart, which is never easy to get over. i have all these memories of good times and the thought that we'd never lose the bond that we've created over the years, and it suprises me that the people that i always thought of when i thought of a 'good friend' are more like strangers to me now a days. i feel like i only have a hand full of friends that i can truly depend on no matter what situation i'm in. it's a little disheartening to not be able to rely on the people who once used to be your safetynet.

i just want everything to go back to the way it was, when life was great, when the girls were all together, when i was in love with the perfect guy, when i had family dinners, when i used to be content with everything in my life. now it feels like somethings missing, but i guess time heals all.

wow, how fucken depressing is this blog. it wasn't supposed to be all down in the dumps!

soooooo lets change the tone shalll weeee.

my new years resolutin is going to be all about saving :) . saving for a HOLIDAYYYYYYYYYYYYY BABYYYYYY. hahaha seriously.

my aim is to save $4000 for a fabulous holiday to an unknown destination as of yet. i'll figure it out later on when i actually have the moolah in my bank account :L .. i think it's definately achievable. as long as i have a job. :)

also, i should be fucken getting my P's in 2009. thats another resolution. fuck you if you think i can't have two :)

so anyway, what else is poppin? CHRISTMAS WAS FABULOUS! i can't believe this is the first christmas that has actually felt all christmasy to me. i spent it with Toffee and her family. why not mine you ask? we don't celebrate christmas, not because i'm not Catholic (my mumma is), it's just we never have. like, ever. but anyway, it was awesome just hanging out with her cousins :D .. they work at the Lindt Chocolate shop in the city so i got some choco. who can complain about that ?!?! had a awesome Christmas lunch (i (L) Thai food) and just chilled and illed this that walking around Rose Hill at night getting attacked my mossies. HAHA!


.. how was Xqlusive you ask? .. well, it didn't meet my expectations which sucked a load of ass. i wish i didn't hype it up so much, maybe then i wouldn't of been as dissapointed as i was. at least i spent it with my baby love and it was her birthday at 12 that night so i was the first to say happy birthday to her :) pretty fabo haha! didn't get to meet Showtek, which was the whole point of the V.I.P ticket damn it! .. we came a tad late :L and we thought that we lost the tickets hahahaha but they just ended up being in dashboard thingo. there was a freaky guy with a humongous tongue piercing that wouldn't leave Toffee and I alone, he freaked the crapola out of me. also, i lost my fucken camera :'( .. how shit go is that? some guy came along during the night and signed mine and toffee's V.I.P lanyards and at first i thought he was some random peaking kunt and i was like "WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU?!" HAHAHAHA! but then turns out he was one of the DJ's because there was a security guard walking around with him and later on i saw him in the lighting area talking to the tech crew and all that jazz. but i still don't know which DJ he was. tra la la la laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa moving on. all in all i give the night a 7/10. it was only good cause the music was good and i was with the people that i (L) .. well the person that i (L). no not toffee. HAHAHAHA.

anyways, NYE plans are city and just go with the flo. just in case you were wondering ;)


p.s - i got Mac's FIX+ and it's pretty fabolous :) ... i also got their concealer in the select form. i don't really have the right tools to apply it correctly, i just use my fingers so it turns out like .. extra foundation? .. hrmmm .. i really need to invest in some brushes.


p.s.s - i miss Iantha. :(